I am having one of the biggest struggles of my life so far as a parent. Megan will be 18 in a month and a half (about). The struggle comes in knowing when to step back and let go and let her make her choices knowing this will affect the rest of her life.
I tell you she and I have had more fights and disagreements about school and what the future might hold than anything else! I just can't seem to be able to step back and let her make the mistake of giving up on school. I just get so frustrated thinking that she is just throwing away this chance she has been given.
Then too, I am looking back at my own life and wishing I had taken more advantage of the opportunities that I could have, and wondering how different life might be for us now if I had.
Not that life is bad! Don't get me wrong there. I am just wondering, if I would be able to have more time to spend with my family making memories rather than trying to work, in hopes of someday having the money to go and make a memory.
I know that I can't make this choice for her. Or any other choices that will come to her later on, but, it for sure doesn't make it any less painful for me watching her go through this at this point in time. Truly I don't want to make choices for her. I just wish that I could have more of an influence for good in the choices that she is making.
This sweet daughter of mine whom God has in trusted me with the raising of.....I worry and want SO much for you! You are capable of so much more than you give yourself credit for. I believe in you and now must sit back and wait for you to believe in yourself. I love you!
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I am with you Jana, I regret not taking those opportunities. But you do have to let her make those decisions, and learn from her own mistakes. Good luck!
me too. you are a good mom.
Na - You turned out wonderfully, Megan is and will too. Stinks that her journey will mirror yours in some ways, but maybe that's because she is just as stubborn and you are. having your best be "good enough" is hard. Love you sister mine :)
You are a good mom. I have always looked to you. Megan is blessed to have a mom like you and I mean everything about you. There is a reason God entrusted her with you. Good luck my friend, and know I love you!
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