This month Ford had his SEOP conference for school. It was decided that if he didn't do something major and soon, he would not be able to graduate. So now, he is not only going to regular school, but he also goes to make up school from 2:30 to 4:30 Monday through Wednesday, then to top off the day for him, he goes straight fro school to work and works from usually 5 to 8 or 9 depending on the day. He still has at least 4 more weeks of this, not to mention trying to keep up with the stuff around the house, IE laundry and chores. It is enough to say that his life right now is not a very happy one. Oh the lessons we must learn the hard way. (I am sure in the back of his mind some place he is asking himself why didn't I just listen to Mom)
Then there is Megan..... Oh Megan! I wish I knew just what to do with Megan. At this point I am just trying to love her tons (which I DO) and try not to hurt her on the days when it seems like she needs a good throttling!
Really all I can say about Megan, is she is still not wanting to grow up, and not seeing the need to do so at this point in her life. Chet asked her if she couldn't see why she needed to work more than she is working currently (about 16 hours a week if she is lucky) and she in all seriousness said "No."
All she wants to do is music. I wish her all the best but when she wants it bad enough to do whatever it takes....then she will want it bad enough. She is not to that place yet.
A while ago, Chet hurt his shoulder at work. He has been going to the Dr for it for a while now. They finally did an MRI on him last week and have decided that it will be necessary for him to have surgery to repair some of the damage that has been done, so as to ease some of the pain and discomfort that he is experiencing. His surgery is tentatively scheduled for the 22nd of December. He is feeling a bit overwhelmed at this point not knowing how on earth he is going to be able to take care of his job! There is no one to come and help him while he is off. We were talking about this today, and the last time he took a vacation was over two years ago. Simply because it is just to hard to get back on top of things if he misses any time.
As for me...well let's just say, the crazy has seemed to taken over me a little bit more than usual. I think it might be the time of year...maybe it's the weather??? It might just be all things working in tandem. Whatever it is I have found it very hard to be nice to people I find to be behaving stupidly. Mostly this would have to be directed at some of the people I work with. I know this is my own personal little battle, but some days I swear I feel like I am waging a full on war with myself, just to be nice. I did not know that common sense was so lacking with SO many people.
The fact the Megan seems to be displaying symptoms of this lack also has not helped with things between her and I.
I would pray for patients, but I am terrified as to what the Lord might give me as my next challenge. This too shall pass and I just need to try to find the positive. (I am trying Dad!) This seems a daunting task some days, but still there is much out there to be grateful for.
Thanksgiving is next week and I have been thinking a lot about the things that I am grateful for. The list is too long to post here, but just know that I know, that I have more to be thankful for than I would ever be able to say.
Despite the struggles we have been having in our little family, I have to say "WE" are what I am most grateful for! I just need to keep it all in perspective somehow!
2 comments:
Hang in there Jana! You are right it will pass, but when your going through it seems so overwhelming. Let me know if I can do anything for you, I will try and come visit before the end of the month.
You are not giving yourself credit. You are both amazing parents, and if what Ford and Meghan are struggling with are the worst of the problems than I would say you are doing just fine. They will grow up eventually and for now they are really great kids and you have done a great job teaching them right.
Yes people don't have a lot of 2common sense sometimes and there isn't much you can do about it so try to not let it get to you.
If you ever need to come over and just vent, don't hesitate! I will make you something sweet to take you mind off of life's problems!
Please let us know if we can help when Chet gets his surgery. Life all works out eventually, sometimes it just takes a while!
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