Funerals.....

Well, I went to another funeral yesterday. Let me just tell you that they don't get any easier, and the ones for infants and kids get harder the older you get!

As a bit of back ground, some friends of ours have never been able to have kids of their own, but have been blessed to be able to adopt a couple of kids along the way. A couple of years ago their last child that they were able to adopt (a little girl) ended up with a rare form of cancer. They have fought a very brave battle since then, going into remission once, only to have the cancer return with a vengeance, and ended up winning in the end.

You will never go to a sadder funeral than that of a child, and the one that Chet and I went o yesterday was probably one of the saddest I will ever have to go to!

If I never have to go to another child's funeral again in my life time it will be all to soon!

I have been having some struggles of my own lately with my oldest, but this made me think about the fact hat at least she is here to be struggling with! I can not imagine having to go through saying good bye at some place of final rest.

Our friend (the Mother) actually apologized at the end of the funeral for becoming emotional about having to leave her baby girl at the cemetery. (They needed for us to leave so that they could let the trains start running again.)

I cannot imagine the agony of having to leave your baby, at such a lonely place. Thank goodness for knowing that life does go on on the other side and there is a great plan and work for all of us. I just hope to be able to remember that on a daily basis and do the best that I can do.

I also hope that I will leave behind something worth remembering when I am gone. Life is SO short! Remember to make the most of it while you are here.

Bummer!

Well I found out today I did not get a manager position. I have to admit that I am a bit more dis-heartened than I thought I would be about it. I had a feeling last week when I hadn't heard anything, but still even though I tried to plan for it, I am a bit more disappointed.

I think what bothers me most is I feel like I wish I contributed more to the house hold income. Not much that I can do about it though, I guess I will try to take the training again this up coming year so that I can try again next year and maybe have a better shot at it.

It is not all bad. I at least like the school I will be going back to.

I will try to continue to remind myself the Lord has a plan, I just need to do my part to try to make sure I am where he wants me to be so I don't miss out on any opportunities He might have in mind for me.

Megan did it!

Well, the school year is finally over and I am not exaggerating when I say I am truly breathing a sigh of relief, while at the same time doing the happy dance, for both my beautiful and amazing daughter and myself.

Megan GRADUATED!!!!

It was touch and go right up to the day before, but she worked extra hard and pulled it off! She walked with the rest of her class on Friday June 4th and received her diploma.

We still have the announcements that we will be sending out, as soon as we get her senior pictures taken.

I just need to put down in writing some where how proud I am that she stuck to it till the very end!

Just in case some don't know how close it really was.... Megan called me Thursday afternoon while I was working to let me know that she would indeed be able to cross the stage the next day to collect her diploma. SHe told me that part of the reason she worked so hard was so that she could call me and tell me "I told you I would do it!"

Thanks and kudos also to all her teachers and counselors at Canyon Heights High that helped and pushed her harder than I think she has ever been pushed! They too knew she could do it! Megan you are still my Hero! I love you Girly!

Mothers Day

Ok, just so it is known up front and foremost, I am not too fond of Mothers day. It is a day the mostly reminds me of the ways in which I have fallen short as a Mother. Ways in which I might have missed an opportunity to teach a lesson or show more love...you know, things along those lines.

This year, was just a low key version of Mothers day. One in which for the most part I actually relaxed a little bit and just let the day come as it may.

Going to hell for it or not, I didn't go to church to listen to everyone remind me how wonderful their Mom might be and I didn't spend a lot of time worrying about dinner and things of that nature. I did invite Chet's folks over for dinner, but I know that I worried more about cooking his Dads steak, right than I worried about anything for his Mom. (Everything turned out good)

Anyway, I was just super glad to have my family and my adopted girl here to spend time with and to laugh with. Such GOOD times. Laughing and just being plain silly. Laughing at nothing but everything at the same time.

Most especially, I am so grateful for the wonderful man whom I am blessed to get to share this crazy life with. Thank you so much Chet for putting up with me and all my mood swings and emotions. For all the temper tantrums and tear along the way. You really are the best! At least for me you are the best!

I LOVE MY LIFE!

I've been thinking....

I've been thinking. A dangerous past time I know. All the same, this weather has had me in a funk for a while now. It has also given me much to contemplate. One of the signs of the last days is that you won't be able to tell the time of year for the seasons..... not quoting exactly as I am not sure where to find it. It is something along those lines though and has had me thinking about how close we probably really are to the last days and just don't even realize it. We just go about our daily living with no thought of making sure that we are prepared, both personally and our families. I have really let some things slid this last little while and it is wearing on me. I need to make sure my kids know what we need to be doing and that we must always keep working at it.

Some of our wanderings may take us farther than they should and we will have to work harder than ever to get back to even where we were before, but we have to keep working!

These are the thoughts that have been in my head as of late. All in the forefront, because of the crazy weather!

Slacking.....

So I am really slacking! :) Not much right now is going to change that though.

The weather has finally started to warm up and I have been outside working on the yard trying to get it all cleaned up before I start planting the garden.

This year I think my garden will be considerable smaller as I don't need to can as much stuff this year; however, I do need to spaghetti sauce so I may not cut back as much as I was thinking :) I guess only time will tell!

I can hardly wait to get the garden in and for school to be out! It has been hard for me to just stay inside at work. I have taken advantage of the nice weather and have been walking everyday at lunch for at least 15 minutes. The only problem with this is that it makes it harder to go back inside.

I have been wearing my tank top doing my yard work and I am already starting to brown up nicely. To bad I don't like shorts so much, or my legs would have a nice start too. It is just to painful to do real yard in shorts.....it hurts to kneel down and when doing the grass and weed eating.....well lets just say that is a really dumb thing to do in shorts, if you as me! MUCH to painful! Oh well, poor Chet will just have to deal with my white legs!

I hope to have more to report on before too long but for now at least this is an update!

Spring Break so far

So this week has been Spring Break for us, and so far it has been really kind of a bummer! It has been cold and winter like for almost the whole thing! Nothing at all like what spring break is suppose to be like.

Today though the sun came out and it was a bit warmer! Yeah! Down side, I had to go have my first mammogram. Up side, after the mamo, I got to go to Salt Lake and have lunch with my favorite Aunt in the whole world!

Julie and I went to Cafe Rio and got to visit for a whole hour! It was so nice to just sit and visit! All too often life is buzzing around us and sending us so many distractions that we miss a lot in the visiting! Today, we got to visit without being as distracted!

I am so grateful for good family with whom I enjoy spending time with. And thanks Julie for being patient while waiting for me to work out when we could get together! I love you!