First Day back

Well it was official! Today was my first day back to work! School starts on Monday and we had to go get things ready.

Things are going to be changing quite a bit I am thinking! They told the managers to tell all of us that if we want our jobs, that we need to "suck it up" and deal with it. The work is going to be a lot harder this year and the menus a lot more labor intensive. In short, we are going to be working more for yet again less!

What I mean by this is that I have not had a raise for three years! Yes I am glad to have a job that provides me with insurance at a reasonable cost. It would be nice though, that along with said insurance, who's rates go up and up every year, I could get a cost of living raise that would help me cover the cost of said insurance! Last year I barely made enough to cover the cost of insurance without having to come up with any out of pocket above what they took out of my check. I am quite literally working for the insurance only!

Then you have people bitching and moaning about the food we are serving the kids! When there has been no increase in what a school meal costs for the last two years! These people bitching about the food we are serving, are the same people that would be the first to bitch about the increase in meals! Even if it were to give the kids some better options and nutrition!

I mean think about it people! Where else can you go and get a main dish, drink and sides for $2?! Really!

So because there are people out there thinking that the kids are getting the shaft when it comes to eating, I get the shaft (and others like me) for three years running because we are trying to make everyone happy! Let me just say also, that I eat the same food as the kids, and it's not as bad as some people make it out to be! It is not a gourmet restaurant but for the price that is being paid for the meal, it really isn't too bad!

Whew! I think I am done dancing on the soap box for now.I think. ;)

I really am glad that I have a job REALLY!

I am just NOT looking forward to going back, and NOT looking forward to having my insurance rates go up again and still not get any kind of raise.

I can't go any place else and get the summer off, or get paid as much as I do without any kind of schooling (hind sights).

I just had to vent a little bit, after hearing some people out there griping up a storm about things that that haven't really thought completely through from every angle. Not to mention all of the people working their hardest to try to keep as many people as possible happy.

Also, one more thing that bugs the crap out of me.....Oh, never mind....it wouldn't change anyway, and the ones who might be reading this probably feel the same as I do.

I will just leave it as enough said, take a deep breath and try to enjoy the last weekend before work begins with a vengeance.

Almost over....

Well, time is just flying right along. The summer is already almost over :( I am more saddened by it this year than most, maybe because Megan won't be going back to school. At least not as of yet. I am also going to miss the r=time that I have been able to spend with Chet and I have been able to spend together. At least two days a week or more I have been able to go work with him and share the days with him. I really enjoy this and am going to miss it immensely.

I have spent quite a bit of time out riding my bike, but if things go well, I am planning on riding to and from work everyday. Even if I have some small errands to run after work if I take a back pack with me I should be able to do at least some of them before I go home, so I should be able to log quite a few miles every day. At least that is the goal.

Ford is working at Artic Circle as of this moment and Megan is working at Subway still. She is also looking for another job at the moment. I won't say how hard she is or has been looking. For her sake I hope she finds something soon. She has been introduced to the world of credit, she purchased some contacts and glasses and didn't have the money to pay for them up front so chose to finance them. We will see how fast she learns this lesson. Hopefully faster than we as her parents did. Oh well, it is her lesson to learn. In general life is moving right along and things are going well.

Funerals.....

Well, I went to another funeral yesterday. Let me just tell you that they don't get any easier, and the ones for infants and kids get harder the older you get!

As a bit of back ground, some friends of ours have never been able to have kids of their own, but have been blessed to be able to adopt a couple of kids along the way. A couple of years ago their last child that they were able to adopt (a little girl) ended up with a rare form of cancer. They have fought a very brave battle since then, going into remission once, only to have the cancer return with a vengeance, and ended up winning in the end.

You will never go to a sadder funeral than that of a child, and the one that Chet and I went o yesterday was probably one of the saddest I will ever have to go to!

If I never have to go to another child's funeral again in my life time it will be all to soon!

I have been having some struggles of my own lately with my oldest, but this made me think about the fact hat at least she is here to be struggling with! I can not imagine having to go through saying good bye at some place of final rest.

Our friend (the Mother) actually apologized at the end of the funeral for becoming emotional about having to leave her baby girl at the cemetery. (They needed for us to leave so that they could let the trains start running again.)

I cannot imagine the agony of having to leave your baby, at such a lonely place. Thank goodness for knowing that life does go on on the other side and there is a great plan and work for all of us. I just hope to be able to remember that on a daily basis and do the best that I can do.

I also hope that I will leave behind something worth remembering when I am gone. Life is SO short! Remember to make the most of it while you are here.

Bummer!

Well I found out today I did not get a manager position. I have to admit that I am a bit more dis-heartened than I thought I would be about it. I had a feeling last week when I hadn't heard anything, but still even though I tried to plan for it, I am a bit more disappointed.

I think what bothers me most is I feel like I wish I contributed more to the house hold income. Not much that I can do about it though, I guess I will try to take the training again this up coming year so that I can try again next year and maybe have a better shot at it.

It is not all bad. I at least like the school I will be going back to.

I will try to continue to remind myself the Lord has a plan, I just need to do my part to try to make sure I am where he wants me to be so I don't miss out on any opportunities He might have in mind for me.

Megan did it!

Well, the school year is finally over and I am not exaggerating when I say I am truly breathing a sigh of relief, while at the same time doing the happy dance, for both my beautiful and amazing daughter and myself.

Megan GRADUATED!!!!

It was touch and go right up to the day before, but she worked extra hard and pulled it off! She walked with the rest of her class on Friday June 4th and received her diploma.

We still have the announcements that we will be sending out, as soon as we get her senior pictures taken.

I just need to put down in writing some where how proud I am that she stuck to it till the very end!

Just in case some don't know how close it really was.... Megan called me Thursday afternoon while I was working to let me know that she would indeed be able to cross the stage the next day to collect her diploma. SHe told me that part of the reason she worked so hard was so that she could call me and tell me "I told you I would do it!"

Thanks and kudos also to all her teachers and counselors at Canyon Heights High that helped and pushed her harder than I think she has ever been pushed! They too knew she could do it! Megan you are still my Hero! I love you Girly!

Mothers Day

Ok, just so it is known up front and foremost, I am not too fond of Mothers day. It is a day the mostly reminds me of the ways in which I have fallen short as a Mother. Ways in which I might have missed an opportunity to teach a lesson or show more love...you know, things along those lines.

This year, was just a low key version of Mothers day. One in which for the most part I actually relaxed a little bit and just let the day come as it may.

Going to hell for it or not, I didn't go to church to listen to everyone remind me how wonderful their Mom might be and I didn't spend a lot of time worrying about dinner and things of that nature. I did invite Chet's folks over for dinner, but I know that I worried more about cooking his Dads steak, right than I worried about anything for his Mom. (Everything turned out good)

Anyway, I was just super glad to have my family and my adopted girl here to spend time with and to laugh with. Such GOOD times. Laughing and just being plain silly. Laughing at nothing but everything at the same time.

Most especially, I am so grateful for the wonderful man whom I am blessed to get to share this crazy life with. Thank you so much Chet for putting up with me and all my mood swings and emotions. For all the temper tantrums and tear along the way. You really are the best! At least for me you are the best!

I LOVE MY LIFE!

I've been thinking....

I've been thinking. A dangerous past time I know. All the same, this weather has had me in a funk for a while now. It has also given me much to contemplate. One of the signs of the last days is that you won't be able to tell the time of year for the seasons..... not quoting exactly as I am not sure where to find it. It is something along those lines though and has had me thinking about how close we probably really are to the last days and just don't even realize it. We just go about our daily living with no thought of making sure that we are prepared, both personally and our families. I have really let some things slid this last little while and it is wearing on me. I need to make sure my kids know what we need to be doing and that we must always keep working at it.

Some of our wanderings may take us farther than they should and we will have to work harder than ever to get back to even where we were before, but we have to keep working!

These are the thoughts that have been in my head as of late. All in the forefront, because of the crazy weather!