Birthday Smirthday....

Well, another year has come around and went already. My birthday has also come and gone. This year it has led me to some contemplation however.
I was asked by one of my very closest friends, who said "I already know the answer to this, but I have to ask...do you feel any older?" To which I replied, "NO! In fact I feel if anything younger than I have in years! I am in better shape and I am healthier than I have been in probably ten years!" Which I a very accurate statement I think. Which lead me to thinking about WHY had I waited so long for my health and fitness and well being to become such an important part of my life. The only answer I could come up with was that I had simply gotten lazy and complacent. Life was going well and I was comfortable. Since that time I have spent the last two years trying to undo the damage I had done to myself both physically and mentally over the time I had spent being lazy. So NOT worth being lazy I have decided! I will never again look at myself in the mirror and because of a choice to be lazy wonder what I have let happen to myself! I lost a part of me during that time of laziness, and I am not sure I will ever get that back. I will for sure be growing in other ways that will help compensate for whatever it was that I lost though.
So this year I say Birthday Smirthday! Let them come, let them go! As long as I am healthy and taking the best care of myself that I can, it doesn't matter! :)

Tweaked the attitude....

So, I went through the first week with a new manager in a funk. I was so dreading the next week, until Chet helped me out with a wake up talk. He basically told me that I had set myself up to have the bad week I had had by over thinking it, before it even began. I had kept saying how hard it was going to be, and how nervous I was, but then I would say it was going to be good and it would all work out fine. He said that anything positive I had put out had been defeated by all the negative stuff I was putting out too.
So, I decided this week, I was going to head into it with a totally different attitude. My new boss, although he could make life a bit difficult for me, he can't fire me himself, and though I may not like some of the changes he is making, I still have a job, that for the most part I like. I still work with a great group of ladies, and I serve some of the best kids! So I was determined to have a better week. I even told all of the ladies in the kitchen, that it was my intention to have a great week!
Not only was it a better week for me but the whole kitchen seemed to pull together more and we ran a little more smoothly than we had the previous week.
I know that attitude is everything, but I forgot how deeply attitude really goes. Thank you to Chet for giving me yet again a gentle reminder.
And here's hoping that we can all tweak the attitude a little for the better everyday. :)

A simple update...

Well, I made it through week one with the Czar! Who knows HOW I did it without totally losing it?
I know that the new manager does not like me much and he is asking coworkers questions about me and the way I say and do things. He does not like how "aggressive" I am as he puts it. Yet at the same time, if there is a question about anything that needs to be done around the kitchen, I am the one he comes to find. I just don't get it. If you don't like me and the way I am leave me alone and I will leave you alone and just do my job. I am frustrated beyond belief! I have 5 more months till school is out, I am not sure I have the self control to make it that long without saying something he really won't like. Because I am sure I already have without even meaning to.

Everything changes...

The only thing that ever stays the same, is the fact that everything changes! For me this year has started out with a major change. I worked my first day with a new manager today.
First am foremost, let me tell you how much I miss my former manager Dixie! I missed her even before I didn't have her there to work with!
This new manager is ALL about coming in and taking over and making things flow the way he thinks they should. Some of the things he wants to change are really no big deal. It is all just a matter of preference. But some of the things he wants to change, are just a total and complete form of control from the way it appears to me. I hope I can keep working without making him upset and or angry. Keeping my opinions to myself has never been something I was very good at. I have gotten better over the years, but still find it a challenge.
So here is to making the best out of changes I can not control! :) I will do my absolute best!

This is personal....

I have been thinking a lot lately, about me. The kind of person that I am and the kind of person that I would really like to be.
I have decided that to become the person that I would like to be and be remembered as, should I leave this life, there are certain things that I need to change about the way I think and live my life!
So, getting a little bit personal, I have some things that I think I will be working on this year. Since I don't believe in new years resolutions, I am setting myself some personal daily goals. Things I can work on a daily basis so that I can know that each day I have something personal that I am working on or towards!

First, and foremost the goal that I have been working on daily now for 2 years, will continue. My health and fitness will continue! The only reason this is the first goal on the list, is because it is something I have been working on now for over two years and I need for it to be a focus that is for me! Something that makes me a happier person.
Second, I have reflected on the fact that, I am one of the most selfish people I know. A fact that I am not proud of! So this year, in an effort to become an overall better person, I will daily seek to think of at least one other person and their needs over myself, and will do, what I reasonably can, to make their lives in the very least, happier for the moment if not for the long term.
Third, Try to be a better house keeper! There are so many things around my house that need working on! Paint carpet, yard...ect! The list just seems to get longer every time I think about it. So, I will try to work on things a little at a time. Things that I know I can do. Like washing walls and patching holes...things that take time, but are not something tht will consume my life! I would like nothing more than to have everything done at once, but I know that I don't have the money or time to do it all at once. SO if I work on things a little at a time, one day at a time, I might just find that things will come together and look better and feel better for me!
These are some of my personal daily goals for this year. There are a lot more that I nkow that I need to work on, but as I complete some of these goals I will feel more confident about taking on more and bigger goals.
Wishing myself and all of those in my life luck and determination in this new year! My we feel good about the things we have accomplished by the end of it!
Happy New Year!

T'was...

'Twas Christmas day evening and all through the house nothing was stirring not even a mouse! There was wrappings and boxes strung all through the house, and the tape and the bows hanging loosely about.
The kids have been here, and the kids have been there, leaving nothing to wonder except, beware of where now?
I in my sweats and pop in his undies had just settled in and said hey... lets get comfy...
When what on the door to my room did I hear??? (knock, knock, knock )Hey, guys are you decent? ummm, no not right now....Just give us one minute and then we'll be out... but now my times over and I start to pout!
My sadness was over in less than a flash! My son and his girl friend came to tell me at last, that things had all fit and the gifts had been grand! Nothing left to do but to smile and be glad!
One more line to my poem, I feel I must add! My daughter and her fiancee also were glad!
Now this poem I did write to remind me next year, when every things quiet, it is no time for tears! The love that is present will always be so, trough time and trough distance not matter I know!
SO Merry Christmas to you and your love-ed ones too! May there always be memories to see us all through!
Lame and perhaps a bit corny I know, but I couldn't get it out of my head!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! :)

Last of a kind...

So,this last few weeks it occurred to me that this Christmas, for us here at the Parker house is the last of it's kind more or less. This time next year, if everything goes according to what is in the plan right now, and according to what I am being told, Chet and I will be spending next Christmas by our selves.
Megan will be spending her first Christmas as a married couple, and Fords plan of the moment is to be going on a mission. If all of these things play out, which I see no reason for them to do anything otherwise, I think that Chet and I should start planning for a get away of some kind! Maybe....maybe not....